Everything is all straightened out. :) It was just a mistake.

I deleted the other related posts, and will probably delete this one soon, too, but I wanted to let those reading know that it worked out. Thanks for your help.

though it really started yesterday

my waist keeps getting bigger

no idea what the scale says

aren’t so little all added together

my runs have all been terrible lately

i was inexplicably slow at getting ready thing morning and that made me so mad at myself i almost drove dangerously

i took a pic of myself and cried when i saw it

i’m a terrible example of moderation

moderation makes you a yoyo and makes you cry at pictures of yourself

i still haven’t finished lesson plans because i can’t concentrate

i can’t finish my post about my weekend because of the whole truth

i haven’t answered messages because i feel like i have nothing to say

and yet here i am

typing this minddump

i haven’t written on my orlando trip because it feel insignificant compared to real accomplishments

i don’t run races

i don’t reach my goal weight

 i don’t have great accomplishments

i’m just here

here

i have been in a good mood for the last day and a half.  then i make one mistake and it gets me down a little. then, instead of making things better, i make them worse and i fall apart inside. this happens every time. i excel at making things worse, if that’s even possible.

Hopefully there won’t be anything to post for a long time. :)